When I left my previous school I guess I was searching for an answer to the question: do I hate teachingor is it just the school?
I think I knew deep down it was the job. So I have decided to leave teaching. At the moment I cannot possibly do it. But if things go as olanned I will be able to leave this year.
I still want to do the best for my class and want them to do well. I want to make a good impression in my school and do well.
The workload, the stress and the children are not for me. I dreamed of being a teacher and I have given it a go.
You have one chance at life and I have got to make the right one.
What will I do? I don’t know. But I can do supply and tutor while I decide.
I am constantly questioning my dedication to the job! This has not been helped by having such a tricky class and trying to settle into a new school.
I have figured out that I enjoy teaching, but the marking and extra stuff is very off putting. I do not mind marking a lot of the time but there are times where it is the last thing I want to do!
I also crave that work/life balance. I want my weekends and evenings to be free. I want to switch off. I do not want to be soending my evening marking and creating the next days outline.
I aim to get most of my resources prepared the week before but still find myself behind. It is such a struggle.
I find myself at night thinking about what I have to do the next day. The job is never ending and I feel like I am always behind.
I do not know if that feeling will ever go.
I want to be better at times, but do I want to spend more time reading and researching different methods and ideas.
I was determined to be a teacher as I wanted to change the world in some little way. But I am not super human!
In a past colleagues new school, I tales of teachers crying and she stays at school until 8pm! What hope is there for her?
I do enjoy teaching but all too frequently I am beginning to question if it is worth it.
After research I think I would like a role outside of the classroom. Maybe an intervention teacher. .who knows.
How do you do it?
It is so hard. Got lots of reward schemes and try to reward a group or individuals during each session but again find myself raising my vouce and telling children off all the time.
Definitely havent settled into the school very well and seem to find myself with 101 things to do. Have no motivation and bond for new class is slow to form.
My usual laid back appraoch to teaching will definitely not work. I hate to feel like I am barking at them as well.
Also been talking a bit to freely to parents! Need to learn to keep my mouth shut!!
Marking takes forever because I have no motivation.
However I do love teaching!! Hoping I can get a job as an intervention teacher in the future.