I am constantly questioning my dedication to the job! This has not been helped by having such a tricky class and trying to settle into a new school.
I have figured out that I enjoy teaching, but the marking and extra stuff is very off putting. I do not mind marking a lot of the time but there are times where it is the last thing I want to do!
I also crave that work/life balance. I want my weekends and evenings to be free. I want to switch off. I do not want to be soending my evening marking and creating the next days outline.
I aim to get most of my resources prepared the week before but still find myself behind. It is such a struggle.
I find myself at night thinking about what I have to do the next day. The job is never ending and I feel like I am always behind.
I do not know if that feeling will ever go.
I want to be better at times, but do I want to spend more time reading and researching different methods and ideas.
I was determined to be a teacher as I wanted to change the world in some little way. But I am not super human!
In a past colleagues new school, I tales of teachers crying and she stays at school until 8pm! What hope is there for her?
I do enjoy teaching but all too frequently I am beginning to question if it is worth it.
After research I think I would like a role outside of the classroom. Maybe an intervention teacher. .who knows.